All of me

Please pray for Mason. Today not really anything eventful happened. Continue with feeds as the previous day because he had increased output from his ostomy but did have slight weight gain. Will recheck tomorrow. Continue on antibiotics. She did show me his weight and head circumferences on a growth chart and they were both around the 50th percentile and growing at a steady pace which is good. Cranial ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow.

Please pray that his body will be healed. His lungs, his heart, his brain, his complete body. The nurse showed me the results of last weeks cranial ultrasound. They always mention these in rounds and basically say they are unchanged and continue follow up each week. Well, when we looked at the results from last week it mentioned that there looked like more bleeding on the right side than the previous week. This was never mentioned to me last week so I am not sure. He is going to have another one done tomorrow so we will see the results from that. Usually, brain bleeds occur the first 3 days of life. When Mason had his first one it was bad. He was dying. They were having to revive him and keep him living. Well, Mason hasn't given us any indication like this recently. He has been stable (thank the Lord). So it is hard to believe that there has been an increase. We found out tonight that the radiologist reads these and inputs their information (not a neurologist). So hopefully they are wrong. I sure hope so. Knowing everything I guess the bleed in the brain is what scares me that most about Mason's condition. He is our child no matter what. God has entrusted him into our care and we love him.

All of me by: Matt Hammitt

Afraid to love

Something that could break

Could I move on

If you were torn away

And I'm so close

To what I can't control

I can't give you half my heart

And pray He makes you whole

You're gonna have all of me

You're gonna have all of me

Cause you're worth every falling tear

You're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love

Even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts

But giving you all of me

Is where I'll start 

I won't let sadness

Steal you from my arms

I won't let pain

Keep you from my heart

I dread the fear

Of all that I could lose

For every moment

I'll share with you

You're gonna have all of me

You're gonna have all of me

Cause you're worth every falling tear

You're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love

Even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts

But giving you all of me

Is where I'll start

And Heaven brought you to this moment

It's too wonderful to speak

You're worth all of me

You're worth all of me

So let me recklessly love you

Even if I bleed

You're worth all of me

All of me.