Wednesday, July 11, 2012

All of me

Please pray for Mason. Today not really anything eventful happened. Continue with feeds as the previous day because he had increased output from his ostomy but did have slight weight gain. Will recheck tomorrow. Continue on antibiotics. She did show me his weight and head circumferences on a growth chart and they were both around the 50th percentile and growing at a steady pace which is good. Cranial ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow.

Please pray that his body will be healed. His lungs, his heart, his brain, his complete body. The nurse showed me the results of last weeks cranial ultrasound. They always mention these in rounds and basically say they are unchanged and continue follow up each week. Well, when we looked at the results from last week it mentioned that there looked like more bleeding on the right side than the previous week. This was never mentioned to me last week so I am not sure. He is going to have another one done tomorrow so we will see the results from that. Usually, brain bleeds occur the first 3 days of life. When Mason had his first one it was bad. He was dying. They were having to revive him and keep him living. Well, Mason hasn't given us any indication like this recently. He has been stable (thank the Lord). So it is hard to believe that there has been an increase. We found out tonight that the radiologist reads these and inputs their information (not a neurologist). So hopefully they are wrong. I sure hope so. Knowing everything I guess the bleed in the brain is what scares me that most about Mason's condition. He is our child no matter what. God has entrusted him into our care and we love him.

All of me by: Matt Hammitt
Afraid to love
Something that could break
Could I move on
If you were torn away

And I'm so close
To what I can't control
I can't give you half my heart
And pray He makes you whole

You're gonna have all of me
You're gonna have all of me
Cause you're worth every falling tear
You're worth facing any fear
You're gonna know all my love
Even if it's not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me
Is where I'll start 

I won't let sadness
Steal you from my arms
I won't let pain
Keep you from my heart
I dread the fear
Of all that I could lose
For every moment
I'll share with you


You're gonna have all of me
You're gonna have all of me
Cause you're worth every falling tear
You're worth facing any fear
You're gonna know all my love
Even if it's not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me
Is where I'll start

And Heaven brought you to this moment
It's too wonderful to speak
You're worth all of me
You're worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you
Even if I bleed
You're worth all of me
All of me.








4 comments:

  1. You are amazingly strong! Praying for that sweet boy.

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  2. Praying for your daring little boy and hoping the radiologist got it wrong this time. You and your family are an inspiration. Stay strong.

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  3. I agree, the bleeding in the brain was the scariest for me. Bella had a grade 4 bleed on both sides. Prayers continue.

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  4. This is such a touching post and song, Lauren. I feel for you so deeply. You have already been through so, so much, and you've had to keep your optimism cranked up to the highest level to get through. Even though you have been, and continue to be, amazingly strong, just let yourself know that it's okay to have some days of melancholy and doubt and fear.

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