Trust me, and don't be afraid. That was my message today. Today has been tough. This week has been tough. Mason is very sick. He is on so many medicines that I can't remember them all and have given up on trying to remember. He has continued to have seizures so they added more seizure medicine and increased his dose of the first one. His seizures are present only on the left side so they are monitoring it closely and wanting neurosurgery to pull CSF off the left side to help with the pressure. Today he had multiple assessments: echocardiogram, vascular test, cranial ultrasound, and continuing with the EEG. At one point there was a line waiting to get into his bed. They also wanted to re-iterate what his future will be. I understand it all...they think he will amount to nothing. Be a vegetable. Hard news to handle but I get it. I really try not to be negative but I know none of this is good. I truly believe that God wouldn't have brought or kept Mason in this world to be a vegetable. And if that is all Mason's life amounts to then we will still love him with all of our heart because God gave us the privilege of loving him and having him in our lives. Yes, it is a priveledge. Mason has touched so many lives including ours. We love him so much and pray so fervently for his healing. And believe in his healing. Josh and I truly have faith and believe that God can heal our little boy. He turns 3 months old tonight. 3 months ago our lives were changed forever.
Trust Me, and don't be afraid; for I am your Strength, Song, and Salvation.
God put Mason in the right family. We will love him.....as he is.....however that may be. God has sent all of us multiple assurances of His power to heal. We will stand strong.....together......and will CONTINUE to declare our faith and BELIEF that Mason will be made whole. God is sovereign and makes no mistakes. God alone can finish the work that he started in Mason.
ReplyDeleteI love you all.......and Lauren.....you make me proud EVERY DAY that you are my daughter.
Mom (Mason's GiGi)
The Bible tells us to lean not unto our own understanding. .. and so we don't . We choose to trust and obey instead. The only way to please God is through our faith. He know we knows what is best. There are so many times the scriptures tells us not to be afraid. We know God is closer than our next breath. We know Jesus is our advocate in heaven taking our request to God.Truths do no change. Opinions are just that. Only God decides a person's future.
ReplyDeleteWell, no matter his prognosis....the mullers love that sweet boy just the same! YOU guys were chosen by our creator to parent him. I have no doubt that you will continue to love and support him all the days of his life...unconditionally! We love you and pray for you often! He is good!
ReplyDeletePsalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you: he will never let the righteous fall.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you but through a friend. I do know God is sovereign and you are all where He wants you. Little Mason was given very special parents and He has a plan for him. My prayers are with you all.
ReplyDeleteHappy 3 months to Mason! I know that you guys are going through such an incredibly hard time, but he has come 3 months. God has allowed him to live and be a testimony and he is using Mason, as tiny and frail and sick as he is. He is being used by the Creator! Continued prayers for all of you, friend!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts continue to be with you and your family. You are amazing and strong and I wish you continued understanding and wisdom and above all, peace.
ReplyDeleteI have never been so moved as I have been by Mason's energy and by your passion as parents, Lauren and Josh. I have grown to love Mason (and Corbin and the two of you) in a very special way through all of this, and I know that you are absolutely right to continue to have hope and be strong and courageous as you are every day. You and Mason and Corbin are blanketed by the love of so many people, not only the ones you know but thousands that you don't. Feel that love and peace and let it hold you up --like a bridge over troubled water.
ReplyDeleteWith love...
The doctors are men of science... very smart men and women of science. However, the creation story in the Bible is different from the one men of science tell. We know which one we believe.. The one in God's word. God knows what is best. Perhaps all of this is to save the soul of an unbelieving doctor who needs to see what our kind and loving God can do. Faith and trust tell us what to believe not what someone tells us.
ReplyDeleteLauren,
ReplyDeleteI just want you to know that I read EVERY post and I hurt with you through this process as well as rejoice with you on good days. I can't imagine how hard this is. But you are a testament to God's grace, love, and STRENGTH through every day and every post that you write. We are praying for you and your family!!!
Do you remember that only Joshua and Caleb were allowed to enter the Land because they were the only ones who believed that the "giants" in the land could be defeated. There are plenty of giants in NICU land for sure but God is bigger than they are.
ReplyDeleteMason already carries so much weight on this earth. He is not nor will ever be a "vegetable." Please do not allow yourself or others to EVER regard him in this manner no matter the circumstance. A man, even if seriously ill or disabled in the exercise of his highest functions, is and always will be a man. The loving gaze of God the Father continues to fall upon him, acknowledging him as his son. Forever.
ReplyDeleteGod is faithful. Doctors have no time machine or crystal ball. They are mere men.
Keep your head up mama. Mason is so lucky to have a mom and advocate like you.
ReplyDeleteHold firm to God and His promises. Your son- a vegetable he is not. At the age of 5, my daughter could not sit-up, speak, crawl, etc...However, she was a blessing to all who knew her. She loved playing with her water mat, loved balloons, laughed and giggled, and lit up when she heard music. She loved to be cuddled and loved her older brother and sister. The world would just look at what she could not do, but we did not miss out on the joy and blessings that she brought to our family. I remember when we were in crisis mode, just constantly being told the negative. Hold firm that your sweet boy is wonderfully made and that God is with him and your family. There is a book (and song) called, "Sometimes Miracles Hide" by Bruce Carrol. Your son is a miracle and he has so much to offer and teach this wonderful. He is so lucky to have such a sweet and loving family. We are praying for Mason.
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If you read Numbers 21 you will read about how Moses was directed by God to place a brass snake on a pole that whoever looked at it would be healed. It is interesting that a snake on a pole is the symbol of modern medicine{healing].
ReplyDeleteLauren,
ReplyDeleteIt is difficult to see God's purpose in all of Mason's suffering. However I do know that he has a purpose for Mason's life. Your blog has reached so many people and thus allowing God to work through Mason to minister to His people. I will continue to pray for God's comfort and strenght for you and your family during the daily ups and downs and that God's purpose for Mason's life will be fully realized.